every element in a person's body. infrastructure. dna, may be taken for granted by the age of 3.
well, not every. but,..a huge portion.
i often sit and marvel at just how complex the fragility and intricacy of each human being we come into contact with can be.

remember those strangers, ..you met on the bus one time?
no. or that temporary friend/travel partner who sat next to you on your trip to the cinema.
do you believe the cosmos has some interwoven scene or mechanism to a play that we are all joining in on our own role.

do you believe a person's body chemistry is set and synchronized to yours for that moment of time when your paths meet, the person's brain waves and specific amount of neurons, are in sync for you to finally speak words that they will be able to receive and hear for that given time?

and then something changes. something is downloaded and inadvertently received (whether they notice it or not) and the Spirit moves and physiologically with the heavens connecting with the earth, God has his way in the cosmos. and then they are either separated and moving in different directions all over again. or joining in a new journey.

this is what I call metaphysical encounters.

there are miracles, revelations
happening around us everyday. today.

I think the revelation and depiction for direction from God is so small and minute, that it's everything you needed to know.

but never thought you could.

this is how I live my life at times. this is how it comes across ever since i can remember. john 3:8.


but I do admit, the human side of me does get hurt when letting things go where they must.
I once told someone from my past, if i was given the choice to remove the emotional stimulus of pain or suffering from my mental capacity. I wouldn't do it.

i most emphatically said no. this is part of the human life, we breathe in, we breathe out the intricacies of now. their injustice to our souls, the pains, theheartaches, the regeneration, the desecration, the love, the joy, the raptures.

i am no Savior,
but I do realize that each breath has it's weightiness.

currently..

revive this
Transcend to this.


Embrace this.

fire behind her eyelids.

I've reached for you,
I'm gasping in the incomprehensible wind.
And ill let you carry me.
I'll let you sweep me,
and bring me to places i can't even control.


almost nothing and everything is coming together all at once.
daring to travel into the mystery, unlatching myself from all compasses and hinges and diving deep into the abyss that is God. this jump, this journey will cost me.

I see him in every place i go. evident in every moment, felt in every drop of relaxed air. like fingertips


I can sense him on my skin, and feel him under my eyelids when i sleep. I can feel him within my brain, and if I gaze intensely ahead.
I quickly close my eyes as if not to unveil what Im not ready to see..
I'd rather keep it safe, under white sheets, locked only to be exposed as a mystery.

It is only till his hands uncover what is meant to be viewed by my own eyes, at that moment I'll be ready.
I am experiencing this God in ever-changing, all- encompassing, unorthodox, and overwhelming ways.

usually id be kind, gentle, and polite to not say, but I'd pity the one not willing to take the jump.

You will never know life as we were meant to see it.
even with our eyes closed. dead in the body, but alive in the soul.

ask yourself, how would you like to experience the eternal?
of heaven on earth.
of complete nirvana, of unending bliss.

now is the time.

"where, except in the present, can the eternal be met"-cslws

I've reached this place in my life where the unknown doesnt scare me.
And there is only One source, ..for the eternal.

dreaming & chasing.

Rewind a few months from this moment or two years, and you would find a girl silently sheltered around the world that she thought she always wanted to know.
Wrapped tightly and falsely shrouded around an unknowingly suffocating mind.
sometimes, I feel like I am grabbing at the seams, holding and scraping the door posts of a door I must walk through, out of a room already too small and dilapidated to begin to live in again.

I look back from the door post, and all i see is littered and uncomfortable walls of people, places, pictures, and moments of things I no longer used to know. I look distastefully back at those photos, those fragments and false facades of the moments I thought .

And a pain grips and stings my heart.
Holding & living with Ghosts only meant to haunt & hold you from your future is only a debilitating thought of the Enemy. An ugly, silent- deceptive force. That wants nothing more, than to steal your joy. intrinsically & in small doses.
That's why i must go.

That's why I feel the sting, and the harsh pain of the vines and the weeds pulling me from it. This maniacal smile and laugh. A glare in his eyes that is so maddening, it makes me want to trust Him more. And then Im gone. And, with one swift move: I am out in the open.
Complete and alone, separated from the things that no longer can haunt or harm me.

The building where the room was housed, has burned down. So much so, that even the charred pictures of the photographs are blackened to a state where there is no possible recollection of the past any longer.

And the ones I hold dear, are written upon my mind and heart. Portable enough to take with me, transitory enough, to give them room to grow.

real Love grows..
& tender hearts grow with them.

For all those I love: those following your dreams. chase it. and believe it.
As one maniacally chasing the Light.
And let it surround you. & over encompass you.
unswervingly.

speak en cinema.

I've decided that i will articulate the rest of my thoughts,
in cinema.
music videos, particularly.

decipher.



today:

feeling this way for quite a few days.
strange.


&

in response to my prev. post below this one.
*sigh*

its ironic.