as if I live two lives into one.

I’m this [-----------------] much closer to passing the tipping point.

..I feel myself going over the edge.

I feel it is the healthiest point of my existence thus far.

I won’t recognize myself fast forward 3 months from now.

..everything, ...everything is fast-forwarding at an accelerated rate.

when you live in a world that is encapsulated and.. worked into the very fiber and emblem of  your destiny through“art”...your mindset starts to change.

things are seen in an unparalleled manner. reality and the sensations that follow tend to compete with the mindset of the agitated, closed in masses around you.

condemnation to adhere or a stifling un accessed mindset seem like heavy gates closing in or rocks thrown at an ornate, elegant, translucent sail getting ready to unfurl.

everything.. everything. everything starts to become transferable. everything you desire starts to reach out and  touch the breaking point of the ‘eternal’.

You start to feel more than you’ve ever dared yourself to dangerously feel;

than you have ever allowed yourself to amorously go.

....when you start to Embody and become an idea..

..you start to engulf into the desires and convictions that you have cognitively been aware to adhere to since birth..

...then everything that once was 2-D and one step away from a tangible grasp, starts to jump  off the page and congeal into the type of inherit reality.

for the sake of this.... everyone is no longer a physical monument.

But more-so, an illuminated moment on the scape  of your intangible, emotional memory.

 And in this state, your emotions are just as impressible as two unexplored bodies.. unpronounced for the first time.

the scape of  your mind starts to elevate and the truth about the exploration for truth through the unexplainable becomes clearer.

no longer, is a look.. a visual.. a piece of artwork an “appeasement” to the unquenched sensual soul, but now a pin-point on the map of your sole journey to Eternity.

in my understanding,

..this always leads to that.

with every touch, in the physical.

it creates monumental moments;

wavelengths that cover mountains and drown monuments,

in the Spiritual.

i’ve been living a life 1/2 way alive, 1/2 in the intangible.

i have lived the most ‘unscrupulous’ life, and i only want it to accelerate more.

every aesthetic sensitivity,

every aesthetic expression

has only caused it to be (more) than just the physical impression.

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