i realized i only loved him in abstraction but not in person. it was the person itself that fought against his intangible soul. it was the ugly flesh that marred it's countenance and soiled his effervescent spirit. until it crushed both him and the mounting Truth in his eyes. nowI see him walk in a daze, bumping into walls and falling into corners only to claim them invisible. it's a shame.. because i would have loved him a million lifetimes. our love would have been that of things unspoken of. and made the heavens rejoice.
to you, (if you are to ever read)
"there is a holiness to the heart's affections of men, and you know nothing of that"..